I haven't posted in a while because it's been a crazy few days in my personal life. I found out Saturday that my ASM in Chattanooga lost her 8-week-old niece and 19-year-old sister on the same day. Then Michael was hospitalized. Needless to say, I was stressed. But this didn't have the usual effect that stress has on my pain. I guess that's good.
I started feeling bad immediately after I moved after my injections on Tuesday. I went from 3.5/4 to an 8 instantaneously. I don't know why that happens, but I think it may be time to stop injections for a while. Today it started flaring up again on the left and rights sides - the stabbing, twisting pain that usually precedes hospital visits. But I've been at the hospital every day since Michael went in, and I don't want to go back. I'm putting heat on now, and I'm supposed to stay off my feet, which is what I'm going to do tomorrow.
I'm hoping to see Dr. Williams in the morning (my psychiatrist). My anxiety/stress level is ridiculous now. I'm not sleeping well, and I'm having trouble focusing when doing things like driving. Today, on the way to work, I realized I was half in the left shoulder, half on the road. Definitely time to fix that.
Overall, the weekend was tough on my body (I am physically and emotionally exhausted), but it could have been worse.
Tuesday is the two-year painiversary. Today I realized the gravity of that - I have been in constant pain for two years, and it has completely controlled my life. The year before that was full of psychological/emotional pain. I've been hurting for a long time. I'd like some relief now. And if my medical providers can't make me better, they should at least try to make me feel better.
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